To whoever is reading this: hi. I’m creating this blog mostly as an outlet to get my thoughts and feelings out. I have no idea if it will resonate with anyone at all. If it has zero readers, that’s ok. I just need to work through and process my thoughts, and thought that a blog might be a good way to do it. 

I have been struggling for years with my father’s descent into alt-right wing media, toxic social media algorithms, and conspiracy theories (which I will generally call “hate media” in my posts). My dad spends much of his awake time on Facebook or otherwise engaging with alt-right content. He is 75 years old and if you didn’t know that he’s retired (he is), you might think that he spends his day working remotely, because he’s never without his laptop. Constantly connected, constantly engaged with hate media. 

My dad and I haven’t had much of a relationship for the past few years. I’ll tell you more about the trigger for this breakdown in my next post. The challenge I’m having is that, even without much of a relationship right now, I constantly think about his addiction to hate media. I constantly check to see if he’s still engaging in this content (spoiler alert: he is). I don’t know why I keep thinking about it, but I’ve reached a point where I want to move past it all. I want to let him go. His issues consume too much of my mental energy. His engagement with and sharing of hate media content makes me feel incredibly sad. Ashamed. Embarrassed. I need to let it all go. 

You might then wonder why on earth I would start a blog to focus on his issues even more? Fair question! I’m hoping that by getting this out of my head, and by writing it all out, it will help me to process my thoughts and feelings in a way I haven’t been able to do yet. 

Just a little more about me. I’m a woman in the DC area. Wife to an amazing husband. Mother of three teens/young adults. I’m a lawyer and have an amazing career that I love.

I’m not attaching my name to this blog for now as I just want the freedom to get my thoughts out and share the absolute truth as I see it without feeling like I need to be careful because of my name being attached to it. I might change my mind about that someday, who knows.

For now, peace out. 

XO,

Jane